i freaking hate my hair....
why it doesnt grow longer!!!!???

had dinner wit pei inn, xinyi and si yi ealier..
she told me not to blog..
but i amso tempted to blog..
hahah...
not gonna write much just a test that i did
so what do u say bout the results??

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2007年开学了
来到了新的环境
有了新的同学 新的朋友
我是个念旧的人
不喜欢重新认识新的朋友 种下新的友谊种子
因为我知道真心对你的人真的不多
而且，还没来到这里就先听说这里的人有多现实
到了
整班都是女生
我知道今年大家都不会有多开心
勾心斗角的日子有了

真的不出我所料
一开始的友善渐渐变成了同学闹分组
日子久了也都知道每个人的个性怎样

对我来说没有什么影响
因为我从来没有太过信任任何人
只因为想保护自己
在课室里我不属于任何一组的朋友
虽然偶尔会感到寂寞
但是拨通电话 姐妹就会在身边

困扰不会太大
虽然不相信任何人
我却不曾待人不诚恳
我一直都认为 只要你对别人好，人家就会对你好
可是很多时候
想的跟说的不一样
说的又跟做的不一样
希望的总是会落空
因此我们不再对任何人有任何期许

所以当我说我在这里没有朋友的时候
请不要感到讶异

最近又个女生跟闹别扭
虽然不是很清楚原因
可是她却不像根我说话
而且对我好的同学也被她排挤
我可怜的朋友
呵呵
真是委屈她了
我真的不明白为什么这么讨厌我
不过我个人也不喜欢她哈哈
单纯因为觉得她自以为是
不诚恳
常常看不起别人
或许是我自己对她有偏见
不过 我自己认为对她还蛮不错的

而且 我跟他的深仇大恨
全班同学都看透了
而且谁对我好
她就不爽谁
真是抱歉了各位

找一天。。。。 一天
会跟她摊牌的
在说吧




生病了整个人是闷的咯。。。。。。
穷人不能生病啊！！

how does it feel like to be dead...
re u afraid of death?
yes.. i do..
i really do..
i always imagine the moment before u re dead..
would be the worse moment of ur life..
thinking of u would leave everyone u love..
and u don hv the time to say gd bye..
ur family..
what will they do withoiut you?
perhaps u re not so important..
but somehow.. i guess.. someone out there will be sad..
u don wanna see them cry becoz of u..
i guess.. u wont get to rmb a thing.. after u close ur eyes and nvr open it again...
i'm a kia siu person..
will try to protect myself..
i don wan myself to get hurt..
coz anything might ahppen anytime..
one moment u re sitting in coffe bean drinking coffee. and the next second u might just die in an accident..
tell the ppl u love that u love them before u regret..
tell them they mean a lot to them..
i do..
i tell my parents i love them..
my friends mean a lot to me..
i cant forget how my granma just left like thnat
she promise tat we will celebrate CNY together
but she left..
i hate the feeling of ur love one leave u...
so..
cherish every moment..
before it is too late..

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
***************************************
不知道为什么
每次听到这首歌
心总是纠一下
会很心疼
虽然自己没有这样的经验
可是总觉得
女孩会很痛吧
自己心爱的男人离她而去
需要多少的勇气去接受他们的恋情
需要多少的勇气接受他已经不爱她
是心痛的咯。。。。。

一大清早起床
喉咙痛到不行
要生病了我想说
再睡一下吧

40分钟后
电话响起
是我宝贝起床了吗？
打开简讯
“龙一出车祸了。。 进医院你知道吗？”
我马上从被单里冲起来。。
打了电话给巧双结果她不清楚什么事
挂了电话马上拨给龙一却不通
无敌紧张的
赶快写了简讯给他要他回电话
过后又试着打给他
接通了

我却不知道该问些什么
车严重损伤
人脚受伤了
担心
真的担心

中二就认识了龙一
总是对我很好
尤其今年来到了kl
他几乎天天都打来陪着我
回新山也会见我
带我出去吃好吃的
去玩
我好像又多了一个哥哥
被疼的感觉是爽的

现在他出事了真的很希望自己能赶回去看他
唉。。。
保重亲爱的
希望你会没事

hv thousand words to write..
now..
this moment..
but i need to write in chinese.. lol..

haha..
i know my english tak boleh pakai..
haha..
so..
just one word then..


































































emo..

days without my laptop were awfully bad..
had nth to do but sleep, eat and sleep..
such 'productive days' i had..
and my poor roomie..
she had worse days..
cut her toe..
and.. aih.. long story..
well back to me..
damn damn damn broke..
cant imagine how am i going to survive wit 100 bucks this month..
anyone has any lobang?
desperately need a job right now..

and yeah..
finally
i guess everything has come to the end..
we re all now leading our own lifes.
and mine.. werent reli good..
trials in the corner..
stupid xxxxx forever busy..
sisters in jb enjoying themselves.. lol..
and i..
am here..
alone...

sometimes i reli do feel lonely..
after all had happen btw me and jeff...
i m now alone..
esther is busy wit her bf all the time..
and me..
i donno why but i reli felt lonely most of the time..
i hope i hv a sister or a brother which is not so much older than me..
at least i hv someone to tok to when i am emo..
frens.. they will always be frens and would hv their own life..
so.. do cherish who u hv now.. a sister or a brother..
that explains why i depend on my bf so much..
oh gosh...
i need someone wit me right now!!!!

this would be the last post..
rmb i said i was going to send my laptop back?
today.. tonight.. it's the day..
daddy will be here in few hours time
and i shall say good bye to my laptop
sad........
cant update my blog so often then..
might be bored to dead..
lol..

don worry..
im jia ni, i'm sure i'll hv sth else to do..
sth more meaningful than blogging here
wasting my time online..
checking out weird ppl that appears in friendster..
yea...
so..
gd luck to me then..
hope after sending my BABY home, my results would be better.
trials is like in 2 weeks time and i'm so unready yet..
just the right time to send my laptop ..

sad sad sad...
lol..
ik..
enough of my craps..
will try to update as soon as i hv the chance..
=)

ok...
whr have i been when i am suppo to use the 3 days weekend to study for psychology??
i SECRETLY when back to jb.. wit master kok.. by his damn cool car..
then i spent my night in sinyee's place..
had nice dinner. and hang out a bit wit yening..

saturday..
went to foonyew 4 for a volleyball match.. under 20

i personally think that the team was not doing as well as they did on saturday.
and the whole team was actually not as bad as i thought it would be.
and i seriuously thought that the fact that they had won in the second set of the finals was definitely not an accident..
they were good.. and the score would not be so close if they were really bad..


so after the match i spent the whole day wit ziwang..
went to perling to sit for his test
then stulang for my long lost kuey tiao kia,
then back home to daya..

basically..
i i had a wonderful time in jb this weekend..
nice ppl, nice food, catch up with my sisters,
met routian..
no clubbing tho. hehe.. don worry ..
i'm not obssesed wit clubbing i was glad i din go last saturday or it would hv ruin my beautiful weekend. hehe.. no clubbing for me for the time being.. weehee!!!!
and the highlight of my weekend was the day when i drove in jb.. hahaha.. and the bus..