maybe we were never meant to be..

maybe you have never love me..

maybe you are still in love DEEPLY with her..

for penguin..

it's not telling you how I feel that scares me it's what you'll say back.

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you .

Why can't you just tell me how you feel, because how you act is confusing me. You walk by me like I'm no one, you smile at me like I'm anyone, you hug me like I'm someone... but kiss, the way you kiss me, its as if I'm the only one.

dear all,



hv been to aus for 4 days..

phew..

it's seriously wasnt easy at all..



first u hv to start making frens or u will be alone..

i mean somehow it's just make u feel uneasy toking to someone that speaks in a diff aaccent.

at least it wasnt easy for me at all..

just couldnt think of any conversation.

thank god i met nicholas chew ( yes.. my g13 class monitor, nicholas, the legend.. hahaha..) and martin who happens to be a student from SAM as well..

felt so happy when i could finally tok in the malaysian way.. haha..



so on the first day.

went to register at the ipo.

and there i met JENNIFER..

the chio,pretty and sweet korean gal..

she's nice la..

my aunt actually invited her over to her place..

and the second day.

jennifer taught me how to take bus and train to the campus.

can u imagine? it actually takes 2 hours for me to travel from my aunts house to campus....

crazy. which means back and forth would take me 4 hours..

and i am still so unfamilar wit everything..

it really needs a lot of guts to get home alone...

damn.. especially wit a blurr driver. it gets on ur nerve when u donno whr's the bus heading...

i am lucky to b home now. coz i almost got lost just now..

thank god i am moving in this sunday

to a apartment that is nearer to campus..



then..

the timetable.. i had totally no idea at all in arranging the timetable

so.. i went to the timetable helper and he basically did everything for me and the only thina i hv to do is to arrange the time.

and BOOKSS!!

trying to get some 2nd hand books so might be able to safe some money. hopefully..





speaking of money..

it's expensivee.... i mean everything

the transport fare is 10.10 dollar (rm 30.3)everyday.

then i register for a mobile phone line..

speaking of this i think it is quite worth.. coz i get a free phone.. se z610i..

i know it's not a great phone but let me finish this..

i get a free hp then i get to talk on the phone for 120 dollars everey month and i only pay 29 dollars..

how's that?? worth it isnt it? haha..

3 should pay me for promoting for them..

oh ya.. back to the money..

food here is super expensive so i guess by the time i am back in jb.. i will be a great cook!!

woo hoo~

till then..

with lots of love.

jyn

in a few hours time..
i'll be leaving..

had a 'yum cha' session wit my dearest frens before i leave..
going to miss msia so much..
especially the ppl here..
had so much of sweet memories wit them..

high school was super fun..
college was the greatest thing that happen to me.
then come uni..
so soon.
i thought it was not going to come so fast..
i've made a choice.
a life time choice which i might regret one day..
i am afraid that i would not be able to handle things well..
lives will be in my hand.. i have to be responsible.
i need courage and faith..
i hv to be more careful in whatever i do..
oh my god..
i cant believe i am taking this job..
phew..


good luck to JYN!!

hey.. penguin..

for the first time, i feel like telling you, from the bottom of my heart. i really do miss u a lot.

even if u wont see this. even if u do not know u mean so much to me.

you really do mean a lot to me..