那天梦见了她
她躺着生病了
我要帮她
却什么也做不了
她痛苦的样子。。历历在目
她从不曾抱怨自己有多辛苦
只因为不想让我们担心

她爱喝咖啡
总爱说冲杯热热的咖啡让我喝吧
爱吃芒果布丁
会说，冰箱里是不是有黄黄色的那个啊？
炸香蕉吃了就发热
可是会给我钱要我去买

没有想到
她不在了
我是那么的想念她。。。

您好吗？
阿婆。。。。

anyone misses me??
hehe..
i'm in the web now..
no connection at home you see...
and..
wanted to check my friendster but
maintainence...
then.. i'm so lazy to do anything now..
i shouldnt hv go back to jb
spent so much money..
and time.. doing nonsense with ying zhen.. hehe..
but
i met mr lim.. hehe..
wat a night.. =)
and zhi qi..
miss her so much..
but ms liteng was busy when i was back in jb..
and sinyee was not around..
sad.. i din get to see them..
aih..
not reli in the mood to update..
but.. yea.. will update some other time..

如果时间能停止
我要
那一刻 在你的怀抱
那一刻 我们十指紧扣
那一刻 那一个吻
那一刻 你的眼神
那一刻 你说你喜欢我
那一刻。。。。。
那一刻。。。。。
假如不曾发生
这一切都是一场梦
就算时间能停留又怎样
这只是我小小的梦。。。。
梦。。。
幻想。。。

纳闷
为什么他总是不明白
我曾经是那么的爱他
离开不完全因为另一个他
要离开需要多大的勇气
他知道吗？

for your information..
i am having my one week sch holidays next week..
then..
my lap top would be at home till next year.
home as in JB house..
coz it's just too distracting!!

i've got back all my common test 3 papers and yea.. just as expected.
did very badly.
and bio.. reli reli reli broke my heart..
just.. sad.. and even ms param had to tell me to get back on track and tell me not to be too sad. i guess.. i've just gave her a big shock of her life..

and lecturers have been telling us the same old thing..
trials is in one month time
u better work hard or u would regret
or this is the last few months for u to go all out for it..

darn.. stress
stress
stress
stress
stres
stress
stress

so.. i've decided to send my lap top home
that means
less pic up loaded..
less entries for my blog..
and.. no more chit chating on msn
k i know i seldom chat wit u guys oso.. haha..
but stil..
life without msn?? friendster and google and stupid chain mails that scare u out of hell..
i just cant imagine
but hopefully
wihtout all these
my results would be EXCELLENT!!yea!!!
haha..
so motivated to work hard now
so don fucking tell me that it wont work if i send my lap top back..
at least i am trying to get good results.
i need motivation..

so friends within ths week
tell me i can do it!!!
haha..

k..
need to get some sleep ..
nightz...

hmm..
second entry of the day..
some photos that i've nvr posted..

if i am not mistaken,
the first time i was involved in a blood danation activity
i was in secondary sch..
form 1 or 2..
i was even counting when i could donate my bloood.
i always thought it was a great thing to do..
to donate ur blood to somebody who needs it.
you wont lose anything from doing this dont u??

years come and go and i was waiting for my 18th bday then i could donate my blood.
doing sth meaningful
then when the blood donation team came to college in march
i went and they told me i had flu
so i cant do that
i was kinda disappointed but at the same time
relief...

then the second time,
in subang parade
i did not hv the courage to do that.
i was scared...

so am i reli that generous and fearless??
i donno..
i tot i could donate my blood without hestitating
but the truth proves that
no..
i am a chicken
a chicken that just talks crap and never do anything at all..
chicken..
haha..

ytd..
the team was back again
and this time,
i told myself
stop acting like a coward.
i've been acting like a clown in front of all the taylors fellows..
wat's so big deal about donating ur blood
and nobody whould even laugh at u if u were to donate ur blood
which would eventually come back..
new blood cells are gd for health!!
haha..


so.......
shereeen that had went ytd acc me to the staff lounge..
i was filling up the form and even had the thought of running away..
when i was measuring the blood pressure,
i was hoping that it would be too low so i don hv to donate..
bloody hell
everything was ok...................
shit..

so i had to sit on that cold looking chair.
i feel like i am sick when i sat on it..
but seriously
i am fine..
haha..

so the injection and all took less than 15 mins.
and then i was sitting in ac having my lunch
my blood some how pump so fast that it din took long
and thank god
the nurse found the right vein so i don hv to go through the niddle again..
haha..

am glad that i took the first step
promise promise promise that i would try to donate every 3 months..
it wasnt as painful as i thought..
bikini waxing was far worse..
haha..
so...
yea..
do donate ur blood..
=)

i swear!
i wil never ever get myself drunk

1. i am fat. i don wanna let ppl carry me and complaint about how fat i am
2. i hate the fact that everyone had to wait for me while i am vomiting
3. the feel of vomting makes me cry.
4. the smell............. need more to say??
5. ppl dissed u when they know u cant drink
6. ppl have to clean up for u and the might see ur private part or accidentally/purposely touch ur boobs without u noticing
7. i donno wat i will do when i am drunk.. might be doing some weird nonsense. and i care bout my reputation. haha..
8. i hate ppl that get drunk and i don wanna hate myself
9. i wanna walk out of the club straight and look as gd as i have just came in
10. i just hate getting drunk..

met up wit bro today
he was worried..
about mum
she thinks im not taking care of myself
i don care about her feelings and my future..
i do care about her
i do love her
and i care for my future..
it's just tat
i m lost..
i donno wat to do..
i dono wat i want
i dono myself..
i reli don

i spent so much money on clothes and expensive food
clothes are invetment for me..
but food..
i reli don like to spend on expensive food
eventhough i always love food
but i don think it's necessary..
oh man..
but sometimes, u just cant do anything about it..
ething's bday, we went to tgi friday and i spent around 60
and drinks like cocktail cost a bom!!
starbucks, coffe bean, sushi..
ggosh..
these food taste like heaven
but somehow.. after that the guilt comes and make u feel like hell
haha..
aih..............
i had to say gd bye to my heaven-taste food..
coz i am soooooooooooo broke!!
haha..
soo this month,
i will be living on tuna, bread, yogurt, milk and cereal and fruits!!
healthy food
and at the same time i can go on diet
ahahah..
lose so,me pounds and save some money on shopping!!!
great!!
haha..
till then....

i miss William Koay Ting Cheng!!!!


































































he made me do this..........
hehe..