these few days have been quite shit-ish for me..
got so hurt when he said we were only gd frens.
then calling off my own farewell party.. damn..
and..
anyway
everything just doesnt seems to be right just before i leave....

tears.. pls go away..

2 months ago,
i've just sat for my finals..
and now..
in a week time.. i am flying off...
went to changi to see nick off last night..
he was so lucky that we went to see him off..
i mean like, for me maybe only poor dhanish will be there.. lol..
and sometimes, i just felt like i am so pathetic.
leaving so soon and i am planning my own farewell party and i don even know if they are coming..
hahaha..... that's damn sad...
and my bf... doesnt even hv the time to acc me just before i leave....












hey u!
i donno when u will see this but saying u miss me is not so hard right?
haha...

so broken...

so hurt...

i thought i know u..

but i don..

u re sitting next to me but it felt so far...

the distance between us...

hv u ever tried to understand my feelings?

or am i not gd enough for u?





i wanna leave..

away from you..

i donno what to say after everything u've said to me.
am i suppose to step back?
re u telling me we will not be together?
or re u telling me it's just a statement?
but it was meant for everyone isnt it?
which means i am included...
will be pls gv me a clear answer so i will know what to do...
i understand and i wont force u..
but i need u to tell me what to do...

u knw i hate the dial tone every time u make a call..
" tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut the number u hv called cannot be reached at the moment pls try again later"

7 times of "tut-tut" exactly 7 times.
i am so familiar wit that and i hate to know that i am familiar with this
which means i hv been calling
again and again
so many times and nobody answers my call...

or maybe he will answer and tell u i am busy...
does that make a difference?
sometimes. .

i hate to wait
but eventually
i've turn into a patient person coz i wait
for hours for days for months and maybe for years..


will u pls answer my calls?

终于有华文了
是想念的

要飞了

难过

was reading rachel's blog earlier...
i have to say

i miss college!!!

i really do miss college.
i rmb the first day i went to college..
i wore a green top. i came in alone. all by myself into the class.
then months later... we were all talking about the first day of college and guess what? my classmates actually rmb what i wore..
hahaha..
tho it's nothing special but i donno. just felt like i am not that ordinary afterall... hahahhaa.... i know it's damn childish.. but don u love it when ppl notice u? i hv to admit. i like the way i felt.

then.. was getting to know all the classmates..
those that were smart, noisy, annoying, big time liar, show off ones, funny ones, drama queen, the dancer and smartass, the only guy... the teachers..
everyone was so special.. so mad.. so fun.. so nice.. so interesting..
it's a waste if u don get to know these ppl...

3rd step is how crazy our class was..
ignoring lectures... complaining about everything... gosips
then the food... asia cafe, market, tuna twist, salmon steak, top man, and the shop opposite ac i cant rmb the name. burger king, drink testing in starbucks, mc d....
everywhr we went. was truly memorable...
hahhaa... sound like some old stories...
then come charity day, sam fiesta, teachers day, prom......
until prom... i still couldnt believe that time just flies like tat....
just like tat....


mrs param always the nice and strict one..
ms shoba the one that nvr fails to make us laugh...
ms ng that always got pissed off because of my stupid questions
hahaha...
ms doh the crazy maths teacher.. hahaha.. but super nice..
then come mrs lian..... erm..... erm.... no comment...
in conclusion! we had the greatest teachers ever!!
i am so going to miss annoying ms ng during her class....
hahhahaa....


i really really enjoyed my college life!
i wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be...
lol... it actually turn out to be super fun...
wit all the running away ffrom classes..
hanging out in the cafeterria....

how i wish i'd never grow....

16th of feb...

9th of feb standby.

leaving soon...........

damn it..
why cant they make up their mind?
just choose one place!
i'll stay or leave!
easy...
damn.............



had shogun wit long yi for lunch!
kimchi steamboat is as good as ever.. *yummy*
for those who reli enjoy eating japanese food.
it's really worth it!!
coz it's buffet style u can eat all u want
and it doesnt matter if u cant finish...
hahaha...

then he decided to hv a hair cut..
we headed holiday plaza..

haven been there for many years.
and it's really not that bad
nice place to shop..
=))


and guess who i met!!
my long lost darling!!!!!
hahaha...
ah zong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he's still the lovely brother i used to know.
he was really busy, thus had not enough time to catch up wit him.
but he might be going to penang!
which means
we will hv two nights to talk about evrything
hahahhaha..


k...
just to update..
gtg...


don reply my msg!!
u die la u....
hmph!!
=p

i felt like a fool

i thought he would be waiting for my call

i thought he would be missing me.

i htought he care if i don call

but he was busy.

he only talks to me when i call.

i am not so important afterall.

maybe he was hinting me, telling me stop calling.

or maybe i was just too sensitive.

wahahahaha....

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tell me u don love new year and i'll slap u!!

ahahhaha...