喜欢却很害怕读小外遇的部落格。
不知道为什么常常都有一丝丝的感动
他让我想念中学生涯， 还有家。
他的一字一句是那么的动人， 可以说是那么的贴近心底
仿佛就发生在自己的身上。
佩服 佩服

加油。 小外遇。

=）

miss me not??
haha...
i know i've been lacking of updating my blog.
but..
pls understand that i still don hv internet connection at home..
so...
yea..
i hv to be in uni to get online, check my email and stuff...

oh well,
second week of semester we've already starting with our assignments today.
super exciting........ my ass...
i am really nervous about all this..
assignments are freaking me out.. and my NICE flatmate.. is driving me crazy..
oh well.. she's not that bad.. just maybe just me.. that i am a tight arse person..
trained by my parents.. haha..
our apartment is super clean coz i am always the one nagging.. ahahha...

then i get super long weekends every week.
coz i don hv classes on friday!!
at all1!!!
my my last class of the week ends on thurs 1 o clock.. HHOOO RAYYYYYY!!
haha..damn happy with that..
which means,
i basically will do my groceries shopping on thurs after class.
then city to kepoh on friday..
doing nth at home on saturday and sunday..
guess i'll be visitng boxhill more often then coz i hv bi jia there and tzuchi activity to go to... since i basically hv like 12 hours of class during the whole week. when the others hv double my time..
that's why i hv tons of assignment i guess.. coz we'll hv more time to prepare then.

how i hope that i am earning aussie dollar here...
then i can shop like no one's business.... hahah...
oh ya..
i;ve got my working permit now.. so...
yeaHHH!! gonna get a part time job..

hmmm..
i guess that's all for now...

miss malaysia lots.....................

maybe we were never meant to be..

maybe you have never love me..

maybe you are still in love DEEPLY with her..

for penguin..

it's not telling you how I feel that scares me it's what you'll say back.

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you .

Why can't you just tell me how you feel, because how you act is confusing me. You walk by me like I'm no one, you smile at me like I'm anyone, you hug me like I'm someone... but kiss, the way you kiss me, its as if I'm the only one.

dear all,



hv been to aus for 4 days..

phew..

it's seriously wasnt easy at all..



first u hv to start making frens or u will be alone..

i mean somehow it's just make u feel uneasy toking to someone that speaks in a diff aaccent.

at least it wasnt easy for me at all..

just couldnt think of any conversation.

thank god i met nicholas chew ( yes.. my g13 class monitor, nicholas, the legend.. hahaha..) and martin who happens to be a student from SAM as well..

felt so happy when i could finally tok in the malaysian way.. haha..



so on the first day.

went to register at the ipo.

and there i met JENNIFER..

the chio,pretty and sweet korean gal..

she's nice la..

my aunt actually invited her over to her place..

and the second day.

jennifer taught me how to take bus and train to the campus.

can u imagine? it actually takes 2 hours for me to travel from my aunts house to campus....

crazy. which means back and forth would take me 4 hours..

and i am still so unfamilar wit everything..

it really needs a lot of guts to get home alone...

damn.. especially wit a blurr driver. it gets on ur nerve when u donno whr's the bus heading...

i am lucky to b home now. coz i almost got lost just now..

thank god i am moving in this sunday

to a apartment that is nearer to campus..



then..

the timetable.. i had totally no idea at all in arranging the timetable

so.. i went to the timetable helper and he basically did everything for me and the only thina i hv to do is to arrange the time.

and BOOKSS!!

trying to get some 2nd hand books so might be able to safe some money. hopefully..





speaking of money..

it's expensivee.... i mean everything

the transport fare is 10.10 dollar (rm 30.3)everyday.

then i register for a mobile phone line..

speaking of this i think it is quite worth.. coz i get a free phone.. se z610i..

i know it's not a great phone but let me finish this..

i get a free hp then i get to talk on the phone for 120 dollars everey month and i only pay 29 dollars..

how's that?? worth it isnt it? haha..

3 should pay me for promoting for them..

oh ya.. back to the money..

food here is super expensive so i guess by the time i am back in jb.. i will be a great cook!!

woo hoo~

till then..

with lots of love.

jyn

in a few hours time..
i'll be leaving..

had a 'yum cha' session wit my dearest frens before i leave..
going to miss msia so much..
especially the ppl here..
had so much of sweet memories wit them..

high school was super fun..
college was the greatest thing that happen to me.
then come uni..
so soon.
i thought it was not going to come so fast..
i've made a choice.
a life time choice which i might regret one day..
i am afraid that i would not be able to handle things well..
lives will be in my hand.. i have to be responsible.
i need courage and faith..
i hv to be more careful in whatever i do..
oh my god..
i cant believe i am taking this job..
phew..


good luck to JYN!!

hey.. penguin..

for the first time, i feel like telling you, from the bottom of my heart. i really do miss u a lot.

even if u wont see this. even if u do not know u mean so much to me.

you really do mean a lot to me..

these few days have been quite shit-ish for me..
got so hurt when he said we were only gd frens.
then calling off my own farewell party.. damn..
and..
anyway
everything just doesnt seems to be right just before i leave....

tears.. pls go away..

2 months ago,
i've just sat for my finals..
and now..
in a week time.. i am flying off...
went to changi to see nick off last night..
he was so lucky that we went to see him off..
i mean like, for me maybe only poor dhanish will be there.. lol..
and sometimes, i just felt like i am so pathetic.
leaving so soon and i am planning my own farewell party and i don even know if they are coming..
hahaha..... that's damn sad...
and my bf... doesnt even hv the time to acc me just before i leave....












hey u!
i donno when u will see this but saying u miss me is not so hard right?
haha...

so broken...

so hurt...

i thought i know u..

but i don..

u re sitting next to me but it felt so far...

the distance between us...

hv u ever tried to understand my feelings?

or am i not gd enough for u?





i wanna leave..

away from you..

i donno what to say after everything u've said to me.
am i suppose to step back?
re u telling me we will not be together?
or re u telling me it's just a statement?
but it was meant for everyone isnt it?
which means i am included...
will be pls gv me a clear answer so i will know what to do...
i understand and i wont force u..
but i need u to tell me what to do...

u knw i hate the dial tone every time u make a call..
" tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut tut-tut the number u hv called cannot be reached at the moment pls try again later"

7 times of "tut-tut" exactly 7 times.
i am so familiar wit that and i hate to know that i am familiar with this
which means i hv been calling
again and again
so many times and nobody answers my call...

or maybe he will answer and tell u i am busy...
does that make a difference?
sometimes. .

i hate to wait
but eventually
i've turn into a patient person coz i wait
for hours for days for months and maybe for years..


will u pls answer my calls?

终于有华文了
是想念的

要飞了

难过

was reading rachel's blog earlier...
i have to say

i miss college!!!

i really do miss college.
i rmb the first day i went to college..
i wore a green top. i came in alone. all by myself into the class.
then months later... we were all talking about the first day of college and guess what? my classmates actually rmb what i wore..
hahaha..
tho it's nothing special but i donno. just felt like i am not that ordinary afterall... hahahhaa.... i know it's damn childish.. but don u love it when ppl notice u? i hv to admit. i like the way i felt.

then.. was getting to know all the classmates..
those that were smart, noisy, annoying, big time liar, show off ones, funny ones, drama queen, the dancer and smartass, the only guy... the teachers..
everyone was so special.. so mad.. so fun.. so nice.. so interesting..
it's a waste if u don get to know these ppl...

3rd step is how crazy our class was..
ignoring lectures... complaining about everything... gosips
then the food... asia cafe, market, tuna twist, salmon steak, top man, and the shop opposite ac i cant rmb the name. burger king, drink testing in starbucks, mc d....
everywhr we went. was truly memorable...
hahhaa... sound like some old stories...
then come charity day, sam fiesta, teachers day, prom......
until prom... i still couldnt believe that time just flies like tat....
just like tat....


mrs param always the nice and strict one..
ms shoba the one that nvr fails to make us laugh...
ms ng that always got pissed off because of my stupid questions
hahaha...
ms doh the crazy maths teacher.. hahaha.. but super nice..
then come mrs lian..... erm..... erm.... no comment...
in conclusion! we had the greatest teachers ever!!
i am so going to miss annoying ms ng during her class....
hahhahaa....


i really really enjoyed my college life!
i wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be...
lol... it actually turn out to be super fun...
wit all the running away ffrom classes..
hanging out in the cafeterria....

how i wish i'd never grow....

16th of feb...

9th of feb standby.

leaving soon...........

damn it..
why cant they make up their mind?
just choose one place!
i'll stay or leave!
easy...
damn.............



had shogun wit long yi for lunch!
kimchi steamboat is as good as ever.. *yummy*
for those who reli enjoy eating japanese food.
it's really worth it!!
coz it's buffet style u can eat all u want
and it doesnt matter if u cant finish...
hahaha...

then he decided to hv a hair cut..
we headed holiday plaza..

haven been there for many years.
and it's really not that bad
nice place to shop..
=))


and guess who i met!!
my long lost darling!!!!!
hahaha...
ah zong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he's still the lovely brother i used to know.
he was really busy, thus had not enough time to catch up wit him.
but he might be going to penang!
which means
we will hv two nights to talk about evrything
hahahhaha..


k...
just to update..
gtg...


don reply my msg!!
u die la u....
hmph!!
=p

i felt like a fool

i thought he would be waiting for my call

i thought he would be missing me.

i htought he care if i don call

but he was busy.

he only talks to me when i call.

i am not so important afterall.

maybe he was hinting me, telling me stop calling.

or maybe i was just too sensitive.

wahahahaha....

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tell me u don love new year and i'll slap u!!

ahahhaha...

it has come to the end.
2007 has been a year...
phew...

finally gaining back some self confidence on my studies..
i did better than last year for my studies.
tho i was still having fun,
but i am really lucky to do well in my studies.
maybe u ppl would think that it's not that gd compared to those that scored 90 and above.
but, i really glad that i at least reached my target.
=)

am really hoping that next year.
i would do even better.
coz i am quite sure will hv less fun there.
hahaha..
will be staying wit my aunt.
high expectation from them and my family.
so hv to reli reli do well for my degree....


glad that i went to taylors this year.
at least my english is improving.
and get to knw some reli nice ppl from all around malaysia
having absolutely fun classmate.
lovely roomates...
and the gal......................... Pei YI!!!!
haha..

but generally,
i think it's quite a fuck up life this year.
drinking, clubbing, shopping.
wasting lots of money..
damn...
and i did sth that i could ever forgive myself
it's against my religion and my parents teaching.
not gonna make it clear here.

i could hv do better this year..
but..
i screwed up...

totally screwed up....

i hope that i'll will be stronger next year.

will and faith and trust.

2008..

here i come!

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complication.
makes life beautiful.